Another piece from spring break! This one’s a little closer to home. I was thinking about summer, since I was out in the rain before, so this is sort of my surreal hopes for the summer.
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He’s always on that board. If he cant be in some skate park showing off, he’ll find somewhere to board. Always skating off somewhere. He can’t stay in one place for long, jumping around, on the move. Whether it’s a “break-in” at the skate park or trips down to the pier, I love to tag along, just to watch. To watch him move. He’s not so graceful on his feet (maybe because he refuses to get a belt for those baggy pants he wears, although he insists they fit him perfectly) but get him on a board and he is poetry in motion. Well, maybe not poetry, with all the crazy moves he does. Its really unbelievable to see this skinny, tall, doofy looking teenager become a completely different person when you get him on that board with those four wheels.
And the worst part is, every time he steps onto his skateboard, I fall in love all over again.
Summer is our time. It was last year and it will be this year too. Same spot for summer homes, coincidentally, luckily. But I always feel like I get in the way, what with all his friends there. But when I tell him this (I tell him everything), he dismisses these concerns of mine. Tells me that I’m one of his best friends. But that’s not what I want to hear.
I need to figure out how to show him what I really want. How can I explain to him that I’ve fallen for one of my best friends? I try telling myself we should keep it that way, just friends, but when I see him I cant control that feeling I get. I try to tell myself what’s the use, if I only see him twice a day? Because I cant help getting so incredibly nervous before I see him those two times a day. My friends laugh at me and make fun of me because I wait all day for him to come up to me, talk to me for about 5 minutes before running off to his next class. But lately, that’s all I look forward to.
This skater boy is taking over my life, and he’s not even in it yet. And I’m letting him, because I love it.
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5 comments:
awww sam + skater = love. dont worry babe this summer will be a good one and maybe you will get your chance to show him how you really feel <3
ahhh i love this pece but i hate it b/c it reminds me of my siituation with MY beast friend.
only i HEV told him what i want and how i feel
ill just never be good enough 4 him
o well lol
i wish i could help. its kiling me that hes so dismissive. Aww. but dont worry, it all works out in the end.
i like how you clearly demonstrtate your desires for him without being too redundant. it gives me a real sense of how much your suffering over him!!
well, this is cute. i like it cause pretty much every girl has been in this situation. really really good job sam ;)
this is really good! im sorry, boys are clueless, seriously. but he will get it sooner or later. and if he doesnt, its his loss babe. its a great piece.
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